The world got too much with you ever?

Noisy neighbors, interfering in-laws, cash-strapped friends (or even overly flush with it ones) that make you feel out of place in your world...

Songs that play over and over again in your head that you never really liked, trash dumped in your space (mental and physical) that blinds the focus of your eyes...

Purple, painful thoughts that violently tear you apart till dry tears weave a temporary patch on old wounds...

Dying colors of the sun that inhale with them old heartaches that just wont let go...

dreams of a better tomorrow from across a lonely, crowded town...

Or a forgotten hospital bed....

Banging your small toe in the middle of the night when you get up to fetch a glass of water for someone you are still mad at, but love too much to show; 

Not being able to locate that torch/ bunch of keys/ document/ college pal/ string of words when you need it most ...

Old grudges, past betrayals, cutting sharp with someone dear 

like getting an unsavory meal when you're least expecting it...

cruel phrases curving on your tongue 

wanting to hurt, wanting to heal...

wanting to love, wanting to run...

wanting strength 

without the trials,

wanting patience

without the wait,

endless wants

forever calm

pursuing joys

and transient charms...


We all do it. 

And nature's alike

though tags be different: 

work, worship - vocation, wife.

Such an ephemeral 

thing is life

that a plug for peace

is all we seek

to fill the void;

you know, like something to stem the tide?



Suicidal thoughts? 

Yeah, had 'em...

Blamed this one, that one and the unborn one (may as well - what's the harm?)

for all my burden....

but clouds their perfect work 

need to do

and my light did come

shining through

...

 an ordinary heart

an extraordinary faith....

"Never give up, " he said -

Ray of Hope, hobbling along 

the sore-pressed bend in Life's long road, 

"I never did." (His smile almost a song)

Then, he and the boy turned the bend,

Giving my spirits a leg-up, to carry my load.